Small Beginnings.

I guess little update is needed since it's been around a month since I posted. I feel like I blinked and woah, another month of my life is now the past. It's been a roller coaster an emotional one at that but with me, they're usually involved. Some big things that have happened, I found out how yucky my heart can be, God has reveled so much sin that I seriously need to keep working on with Him. Me and Luke got a second vehicle, I got a new job that I will start in about two weeks which is one of the most bitter sweet things of my life. I love the girls I work with but my heart is not in the work, God's leading me else where. To an administrative job in Regina Soccer offices. Something I'm super passionate about. I can't wait to have a small new beginning. :)  Also I chopped my hair, kind of a big step for me since I've had long hair for so longgg. I think this past month has had a theme of small new beginnings. It's time to start over in small ways.

I think my relationship with Jesus also needs a recharge. I've been so frustrated.. I know God is using this time to refine me, bring me back to Him but it is so hard in the moment to understand this in my heart. All I want to see is change in my life and my hearts not changing. God please give me the patience to see this through.