This last two weeks have been so good for me. Relaxing and getting rest that i definitely needed after months of stress and big change. Things are kinda dying down for me and I feel like my heart of all things has finally stopped racing trying to play catch up.

We all invest in our lives. We invest in our family's, spouses, financially, friendships and in the end what do we have. A life where we invested in all the wrong places, because we're not perfect and we are going to make mistakes. But again as I was thinking through this I began to realize that my false expectations that I have made up and put on people has made me invest foolishly. I look to people, my husband to give me some sort of validation as a human being, as a wife. That I'm doing a good enough job just to get by. But God opened the eyes of my heart yesterday, in a spit second I came to the true understanding that to be a better person, a better wife is not just doing whatever everyone wants me to do, but what Christ wants me to do. To completely abandon the idea that I'm not a good enough person if I don't fulfill other peoples wants in me. I want to fulfill God's expectations of me as I know more about who he is and act upon that in my life.

So yes God has given me a true desire to bear fruit because there really hasn't been much for Him to harvest.

God is helping me find out who I am. In Him.

Thank you Jesus for answering my cry for help.