Being patient to hear back from jobs I have applied for has really been tough for me. I've realized that I was finding part of my identity in the work I did which is why i feel so restless being at home all day.

I have been keeping myself busy, finding errands to run that I have put off for so long.. It feels good but I really can't shake the feeling that something is missing. I feel like I don't have a purpose with out a job.

Now I'm being very transparent. I honestly feel a little lost. I haven't really had this much free time in a while.. like around four years. I haven't had a chance to get the rest I need which feels amazing having the energy I have longed for since starting college almost 4 years ago.

God knew this is what I needed. He knew exactly that I needed this break from work to lean on Him for my purpose, to fill the space in my heart where I had placed my job. He showed me of my idol of finding my worth in my work.

This song Make a Way by I Am They has really resonated with me recently. God brings us through the valleys so that he can be our strength, our guide; so we can find Him again. Praise God for the hard times because this is when we grow closer to Him.

You brought me to the desert so You could be my water
You brought me to the fire so You could be my shield
You brought me to the darkness so You could be my morning light
If You brought me this far, if You brought me this far

Wherever you lead me, I know you won’t leave me
Wherever you call me, You will make a way
Wherever we’re going, I will be holding
To the promise you have made
You will make a way
You will make a way