Once again here I am. Looking back on the last seven months of life and saying.. I can't believe it's already November next week. Where has the time gone?

A lot has happened in the past seven months of life, but God is still good and faithful! In my last post I talked about not being comfortable and how God had been preparing my heart for change in my life. Well, I had no idea how "uncomfortable" I would become in the next seven months after I had posted that.

A couple days before I lost my job me and Luke had decided to join a new church plant for a couple months with our church the Compass. We would become part of the launch team for the church in the first couple of months to help support and serve. This was hard for us as we still felt pulled to our church family at the east location where we felt connected and called to. But God was also calling us to leave our comfort zone and to serve the plant for a couple of months and so we did.

I did end up finding a job in early April, giving me about a month and a half of not working before I started my new job as a Receptionist at Trademark Homes at the end of that month. This was a transition as I found it difficult to get back into "work mode" after being off for almost two months.

About two weeks after I started there another new employee started working beside me at the front desk Her name was Celeste and we become very close very quickly. She has two sons who she loved with all her heart and we would have serious talks and lots of  laughter filled conversations through out the day. She became a dear friend. It was nice to work beside her and I enjoyed her company so much. One Sunday night in late May, I got a call from one of my co-workers. She told me of a news story she had seen on the news about a 35 year old woman being found at her home, deceased. I didn't want to think that it could be Celeste but it was her house which was pictured on the news. We later found out that she had been beaten to death by her boyfriend.

I was in shock. I remember the last thing I said to her.. "Remember to watch Pitch Perfect this weekend!" and she smiled and laughed and said.. "I will!" That was the last time I saw my dear friend.

 I had some of an idea that he boyfriend was emotionally abusive but nothing physical. After we knew of her toxic relationship the pieces fell into place.. How could we have NOT known. Usually your mind doesn't think that you friend was a part of domestic abuse. My heart broke for her and her two boys. She was a greatly loved woman and I don't know where she is but I pray that she is in the arms of Jesus.


I took a few days off after finding out of Celeste's death and going back to work was difficult but I know God gave me the strength to get through the coming days.

About a week later I got a call from my Dad. He told me he had been diagnosed with Parkinson's Disease. I knew my Dad was having a problem with his arm in which he had gotten some tests done on it, but I didn't think that he would be diagnosed with a progressive degenerative disease that has no cure. It was another shock. God was still carrying me through even though I felt like I had no hold onto things that I felt dear to me.

In the middle of July I got some more news. My Grandpa Phillips had been admitted to the hospital and it wasn't looking good. Now I was his youngest grandchild so my Grandpa was old, ninety-one years old. So the idea of my Grandpa passing away had crossed my mind but that still doesn't prepare you for the passing of a loved one. On July 13th at 3:30pm surrounded by family, my Grandpa went to be with Jesus. As I sat in my chair at work I couldn't help but tear up. I didn't get to say goodbye.

But I did get to say goodbye at his funeral that coming Saturday which was hard but a good weekend visiting with family and celebrating Grandpa Phillips' life.

God was still there, He is always there. Picking me up and carrying me though the pain and struggle even when I don't realize he is. He was still GOOD and was showing me that not being comfortable is necessary for us to lean on Him.

My anxiety during these couple months of my life had been hard to deal with on my own. Adapting and changing your life is never easy as we are creatures of habit. We love stability and when things feel out of our control.. I know I crumble. This is why I NEED Jesus. With out Him showing me more of his grace and mercy through these events I don't know where I'd be.

Since I am playing catch up for the past couple months, God has also blessed us with some really wonderful news!

I'm Pregnant!

We couldn't be more excited to be parents and what a blessing that God has given to us. Our baby is due  June 5th 2016. :)

So I am hoping that I will be updating my blog with weekly updates on how my pregnancy is going. I will try my best to stay up to date since I seem to always loose touch for a couple months.

Thanks for reading if you stuck around till the end. :)