+ Choose Joy +

This last two weeks have been so good for me. Relaxing and getting rest that i definitely needed after months of stress and big change. Things are kinda dying down for me and I feel like my heart of all things has finally stopped racing trying to play catch up. We all invest in our lives. We invest in our family's, spouses, financially, friendships and in the end what do we have. A life where we invested in all the wrong places, because we're not perfect and we are going to make mistakes. But again as I was thinking through this I began to realize that my false expectations that I have made up and put on people has made me invest foolishly. I look to people, my husband to give me some sort of validation as a human being, as a wife. That I'm doing a good enough job just to get by. But God opened the eyes of my heart yesterday, in a spit second I came to the true understanding that to be a better person, a better wife is not just doing whatever everyone wants me to do, but ...

A little bit of changes on the look of the blog. Needed a bit of a refurbish. haha New year approaching, new changes! So as I am writing this post I'm sitting warmly on the coach in our condo at Kimberly, BC Alpine Resort, feet propped up, hot chocolate in hand, surround by the ones I love. This time of year always seems to show me how blessed I truly am. This mini vacation has brought a whole new sense of relaxation for me. I don't remember a time where I felt so at peace, with my circumstances and with myself. It's an amazing feeling as the last couple months have been some of the toughest for me but hey, things are on the up and up. Praise God that he has set me free from some of the fears that constantly were crippling me in multiple ways. Celebrating Christmas is nothing new to me and I love how festive everything seems. But this year I want to go back to the basics, It's about Jesus. All about him. Forget all the traditions and pictures with Santa... It's ab...

Choices mark our life. They are constant through our days. Sometimes we can be unsatisfied in the places we end up or in certain circumstances that we have chosen to be in. As I have been reflecting on this.. I remembered. I chose to be here. Right here sitting on my couch next to my husband. By the grace of God he has brought me to this season in my life where he has completely broken me to bring me back to Him once again. In the midst of an marriage that is just beginning, through crazy emotions and panic attacks, through changing jobs and not knowing what the future holds... God is still here. He never left. Like the lies I constantly believed that God was not faithful, strong or good, I have lived recently in a pit of complete emotional despair. But God IS faithful, strong and good as he has lead me through some new lifestyle choices to bring me back to a solid emotional state. Reading the Word, prayer and long talks with Luke has blessed me in so many ways, slowly taking the sca...